saw Iris's entry post of this story. And i really believe ppl need to treasure the person whom is part of your life. I am not emoing of my past no worries guys hahaz... just that this story make ppl think for a moment and you see ard us there are really this type of things going on.

enjoy the reading then:

不是每一句“对不起”，都能换来一句“没关系”。

男孩和女孩从小就认识，男孩经常约女孩一起去村外的池塘边捉小虾，每次男孩总是满载而归，女孩却是两手空空，女孩总是失落的含着眼泪，独自一个人回到家，然后闷闷不乐。晚饭前，男孩敲响女孩家的门，女孩一见是男孩，扭头就走，男孩追上前，对女孩说：“对不起，我把你的虾都捉走了，给，我把它们养在小鱼缸里，送给你。”女孩眉头一放，慧心的笑了，就这样反复着他们纯纯的童年，转眼，他们各自成长着。——纯纯的“对不起” 。

男孩总是喜欢戏弄女孩，经常会把女孩逗到哭，然后又去哄女孩到她笑为止，直到长大后，也是如此。

男孩经常偷偷的把女孩的自行车轮胎的气放到没有，然后躲在远处，看女孩着急的走投无路，等着女孩拨通他的手机，然后破口大骂他的小贼行为。可男孩，依旧那么喜欢这样的女孩。他窃窃的从远处走来，灰溜溜的为女孩推着那辆没了气的自行车，任由女孩在一旁发牢骚，男孩却暗自窃喜，然后委屈的对女孩说：“对不起，我知道错了。”随即，女孩便会柔弱下来，告诉男孩下次不允许那样，男孩点头，于是，那时的他们每天都充满着笑容。

—— “对不起”的快乐 。

大学毕业后，男孩和女孩各自有了工作，男孩的工作总是很忙，有时一个月都休息不到一次，而女孩总是抱怨男孩冷落了她，终于，他们有了第一次的吵架。女孩委屈的哭起来，可男孩却很理直气壮的告诉女孩：“这是为了我的工作。”这场冷战持续了很久。终于，女孩还是忍不住，主动和男孩和好了。后来很多次男孩和女孩都因为这样的小事而吵得不可开交，可每次，都是女孩先妥协。

那年，女孩生日，男孩答应女孩要给他过一个浪漫的生日，女孩欣喜不已，她在家精心打扮，等着男孩回来陪她渡过这个美妙的生日，这一等就是凌晨，女孩在睡梦中醒来，脸上挂着泪痕，男孩见到女孩，心疼的为女孩擦去脸庞的泪痕：“对不起，嫁给我好吗？”于是男孩拿出一枚戒指。
—— “对不起”也是一种承诺。

婚后，男孩的事业大有成就，经常有许多应酬，而女孩已经成为一个专职太太了，每天在家为男孩准备热菜热饭，把家里收拾的干干净净，她经常会去菜场买回一些小河虾放在鱼缸里养着，男孩总问他为什么，女孩却总是慧心的一笑。

慢慢的，男孩每次回家，身上总是充满了不同的香水味道，而每次没等女孩问，男孩总是忙着解释说应酬太多。女孩黯然，那时起，女孩不太爱说话了，也不像以前那么开朗了，她总是喜欢成天的呆在家里，抱着枕头看韩剧，然后随着剧情哭泣，夜深时，就会疯狂的大哭。以后的日子里，男孩回来时，身上的香水味只有一种味道了，女孩从来不问，可是男孩依旧说：“对不起，今天又去应酬了。”

—— “对不起”，谎言的开始。
渐渐的，男孩开始不回家，或总是在外出差，男孩的事业越来越好，身边都是奉承的人，他每天都在别人的恭维下自豪的笑着，而女孩，几乎不出门了，她总会去超市买上很多方便面，和一些必要的日用品，然后把自己关在家里，这一呆就是很久。从前，女孩会经常和男孩一起聊聊天，而现在，她孤身一人，身边没有一个可以说话的人，每次打电话问男孩什么时候回家，男孩总是仓促的回答到：“对不起，我太忙了。”女孩，失落的扣上电话，那以后她再也没有问男孩什么时候会回家。

—— “对不起”，只是个敷衍的方式。

女孩学着电视上的样子，开始打扮自己，她觉得男孩不回家，也许是看腻了她，她决定不再颓废，自己的幸福应该靠自己争取，而不是无谓的后退。

那天，女孩心血来潮，按照地址去了男孩工作的地方，那是女孩第一次去，也是唯一的一次。女孩涩涩的按下电梯，来到这个男孩经常说忙的地方，她细细的观察这个公司的每个角落，这里的一切，她都觉得很好看。终于，绕过长长的办公走廊，她来到男孩的办公室，轻轻的推开门……女孩愣住了，眼前看到的不是自己的丈夫，也不是那个经常弄坏她自行车的那个贼小子，更不是那个把虾放在小鱼缸里的男孩，而是一个正在和别的女人做爱的男人。那个女人坐在桌子上，******的发出微弱的呻吟声，那个男人，仿佛山林里饿极了的野兽…… 许久，男孩才发现了女孩，男孩惊慌失措，忙把衣裤捡起来穿好。可女孩，转身离开了。男孩飞奔出去，追着女孩，那晚，大雨袭击了整个城市。女孩不顾男孩的叫喊，径直往前跑，往回家的方向跑，男孩在女孩后面大喊：“对不起，我还是爱你的，对不起，我真的只爱你。”可女孩，始终没有听见。

—— 这样的“对不起”太伤人。

男孩一直都没有找到女孩，女孩失踪很久了。男孩的世界已经一片黑暗，无心工作，无心花天酒地，他想不到女孩可以去哪里，因为女孩没有朋友，她唯一的朋友就是男孩，男孩终日守着电话机，手机24小时不关机，怕错过了女孩的电话。这一等就是半年多。

快递为男孩送来一个盒子。 男孩打开一看，里面是许多河虾的标本，有的在树叶边休息，有的在水草里躲着，各式各样的河虾标本，旁边放着一封信。

“ 我始终没有勇气再见到你，可能是我太懦弱，也或许是我根本不想见到你，我想这些『警告：注意文明用语！』应该过的没什么两样吧，我很好，我学会了离开你怎么让自己存活，我懂得了怎样赚钱养活自己，而不用每天等着你回家，为你烧一桌热腾腾的饭菜，直到凉了也不见你的人，我的手机已经不用了，因为我已经不会再为你24小时的不关机，让自己饱受辐射的折磨。我懂得怎样去爱惜自己，珍惜自己的本来应该美好的生活。我想，我是可以忘记怎么去爱你的，因为你把我的爱弄得遍地麟伤。

离婚协议书，就压在鱼缸的底下，你签完字，按照地址给我寄过来就行了。 对不起，我想我是真的累了。”

男孩按照地址找去，他满心希望能够见到女孩，然后让女孩原谅，并且告诉女孩自己不能没有她，可是打开门的却是女孩的父亲，而女孩就站在她父亲的身后——是女孩的遗像。 女孩的父亲告诉男孩，女孩在写完这封信后，跳楼自杀了，血肉一片模糊。

—— 原来“对不起”也可以是种结束。

那一年，男孩疯了。

每个人在自己的生命里头，一定会遇到一个自己真正该珍惜的人。请你好好的珍惜那一个人，不是每一句的对不起，都可以换来每一句的没关系……千万不要辜负了自己心爱的人，那对谁，都不好……把这个故事传下去，让你的朋友们知道，不要随意地说出对不起...... 多陪陪该珍惜的。

生命诚可贵，有情价更高。

lack of updating again... so tired!!! Yest after work went out with Sheila to Wisma for window shopping, had our dinner then i went to meet emily they all for movie session liaox. Went to AMK Hub to watch Halloween 2. that show abit lame. forgotton the part 1 story liaox so don really understand the part 2 series lolx!!!. Total 6 of us watch, Alice, Wei Long, Grace, Colin, Ah Mei and mE!!! 1st time go watch movie with them worx... aftermath so tired liaox... home sweet home!

Me getting sleepy now too... tml still need to work siianx... gotta take a nap... tata!!!

Below is my feeling now!!! After all i hve went thru i finally let go.
Till now then i realised he is such a disgusting and heartless man. My tears and heartpain is not worth on him so i am moving on with my life without him. Once he pay up his debts to me all the memories will be erased off forever.

Breathe Again

Have you wondered how it feels
when it’s all over
Wonder how it feels
when you just have to start anew
Never knowing
where you’re going
when you face a brand new day
It used to be that way
Now I just close my eyes and say

I just wanna breathe again
Learn to face of joy and pain
discover how to laugh a little,
cry a little,
live a little more
I just wanna face the day
Forget about the worlds of yesterday
Maybe if I hope a little,
try a little more
I’ll breathe again.

Starting out again is never easy
Disappointment’s come and go
but life still moves on.
With a bit of luck,
it’s a brand new start,
But I just want my way
No need to walk away
Don’t wanna live a life’s replay

I just wanna breathe again
Learn to face the joy and pain
discover how to laugh a little,
cry a little,
live a little more
I just wanna face the day
Forget about the worlds of yesterday
Maybe if I hope a little,
try a little more
I’ll breathe again.

Things will work out fine
if you can find the courage to look past the night
To see the break of dawn

I just wanna breathe again
Learn to face the joy and pain
discover how to laugh a little,
cry a little,
live a little more
I just wanna face the day
Forget about the worlds of yesterday
Maybe if I hope a little,
try a little more
I’ll breathe again

海鸣威&泳儿 - 我的回忆不是我的

女:伤心的总会任性 灰心的总会用气力将最好的过去 将最多的细碎 锁到属於你的眼睛

男:失恋的不够耐性 失恋的不信是注定於最黑的世界 於最光的刹那 感到属於你的气息

合:即使很多一起过的 想起的通通你的为着是浪漫的爱情

男:通通都可再见 但承诺可再听

合:什麽可不变色 Oh baby当晚与你记住蒲公英 今晚偏偏想起风的清劲

女:回忆不再受制於我我承认

合:回忆也许你的当晚与你记住流水声 今晚站在大地自己倾听

男:难道送别你 回头总是虔诚谁能怪我 总是太感性

男:失恋的都有惰性 失恋的都记住约定

女:当理想的世界 当理想的刹那 因爱 无分你的我的

合:即使很多一起过的 想起的通通你的为着是浪漫的爱情

男:通通都可再见 但承诺可再听

合:什麽可不变色 Oh baby当晚与你记住蒲公英 今晚偏偏想起风的清劲

女:回忆不再受制於我我承认

合:回忆也许你的当晚与你记住流水声 今晚站在大地自己倾听

男:难道送别你 回头总是虔诚谁能怪我 总是太感性

合:当晚与你记住蒲公英 今晚偏偏想起风的清劲

男:回忆不再受制於我我承认回忆也许你的

合:当晚与你记住流水声 今晚站在大地自己倾听

男:难道送别你 回头总是虔诚

合:谁能怪我 总是太感性

Because of you by Kelly Clarkson

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did,You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way To never let it get that far

Because of you I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you I am afraid

I lose my way And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break When it wasn't even whole to start with

Because of you I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you I am afraid

I watched you die I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young, you should have know better to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else, you just saw your pain
And now i cry in the middle of the night for the same damn thing

Because of you I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you I tried my hardest to forget everything
Because of you I don't know how to let anyone else in
Beacuse of you I'm ashamed of my life coz its empty
Becuase of you I am afraid because of you.

Thanks to all the ppl who attended my 26th birthday bash!!! I really had an enjoyable and unforgettable night!!!

A million thanks to all my besties... they are the ones who is standing besides me throughtout this difficult time i having for the past month... They are also the ones who is so supporting in my birthday bash!!! hahaz...

=> Jerene: Thanks girl, you are always the 1st one to be there for me when i need a shoulder to cry on and a pairs of listening ears. Thanks for helping me in my birthday. You always without a second words, be there to help me whaenever you can. I really blessed to have you as my bestie!!! we definetly need to put our initial for our tattoos soon wahahaz...

=> Joanne: Thanks girl, you are another one BFF who will be there for me too! During the difficult time which i facing recently, been keep disturbing you all lolx!! Bu yao xian wo fan horx... wahahaz... Thanks for helping out in carrying my birthday thingy. Simply love you all to the max!!!

=> Alice + Wei Long: Thanks alot for helping me carrying the stuffs, so touched!!! =p

=> Grace + Colin: Thanks you too for all the way come and help me with the stuffs i need to carry!!! zhen de heng xie xie ni meng... :)

=> Eos: Thanks neh neh mei, you been helping alot with my move house thingy and keep bring laughter to my life. Without you in the Dell team, is definetly going to be very boring liaox... haix... meet up soon ok!!! keep in touch :)

The list of thanks is never ending so i really do appreciated for my friends who are there for me all the time, thanks for all the pressies!!! muacks to all of you!!! The pics will post out soon once i have gathered all the pic from all of you who had taken the pics. Stay tuned!

Below is a birthday wish from a Tagged friend named Choon Kiat: He is so sweet enough to send such a wonderful birthday well wishes so just wanna thanks him here for making the effort! :)

Wishing you the happiest of birthdays.
May the best of your wishes be the least of what you get.
Age is all but a number.
Age does not matter, you can party as much as you want.
You're aged to perfection.
Wishing you a happy and prosperous birthday and a sweet night of birthday dreams.
Wishing you miles of smiles in the coming years.
May each and every passing year bring you wisdom, peace and cheer. May this day bring to you all things that make you smile.
Another birthday? Why it seems only yesterday that you were a whole year younger. Happy Birthday!
Happy birthday, may this day always be a special one to remember.
Keep in contact always !!!

Gtg... sleepy liaox... shall return soon nights!!!

sorry guys for not updating much... as you all know what had happen to me recently... I am still trying to move on, do hope so i will be happier soon :)

Shall say more exciting things.....

Yes my birthday is around the corner, I will be having BBQ bash on 17th Oct at Pasir Ris Park area 4 Pit no. 57. Time setting at 7pm. Those who have received my sms and also replyed your ans to me, I will see you all guys at there ok? for those still cant confirm please notify me asap thanks...

Please do update the time you coming if you taking the transport provided so i can plan the timing for everyone... See you all guys ard... Muackx... :)